It’s not a relationship, it’s just a job. However, this perspective can be difficult to maintain when your family relies on your salary, too. It adds weight to every decision regarding work. So, in my case, I have been with the same company for more than 20 years. However, the environment has become toxic, and with the cut in benefits and hiring strategy changes, the future looks gloomy. Now it becomes do I let things happen to me or do I make changes. Well, I want to own my decisions so that way I can do what’s best for my family. I am now looking at other jobs, and I have an interview in a couple weeks with a company that looks promising. I know folks at this new company, and the company has a lot going for it. The pickings are slim because I don’t want to relocate. Relocation would be bad for all of us. So, now my mind is busy with trying to flush out this possible change and trying to be rational. Really, I am trying to stay on my spiritual path. Of course, in my mind I feel like I am fucked if I stay or fucked if I go. I keep trying look at the positives instead – like I have a had an amazing career so far, and now I have a potential new opportunity that could be even better. I also need to think about what decisions are best for my family. These aren’t rash quick decisions but thought out. My wife shared insight with me. She reminded me to let go as things always work out for me for the better. This is another time the universe is looking out for me. I believe it. It was calming to reflect on this. What I realized is that when stress overwhelms me, my mind goes into overdrive, and I over-analyze everything. Then I lose sight of what I feel in my soul – I fall off my spiritual path. This is totally a survival reaction, and I am glad I recognize this now. My positive views are blossoming now, and I have excitement for future opportunities. The feeling of knowing I am going to decide on my terms is very powerful and motivating! I am now back on my path and talking with my soul. As a strategy, I know I need to escape from the tension, and then I can take care of my body and mind – and stay on my spiritual path.
